How long can this last?

It all started when I was at the worst point of the biggest downswing I've ever gone through (10+ buy-ins at NL10), with just $35 left after having been sucked out on (again) twice already in a span of 1 hour when I was favored 3to1. Sick of all this bullshit, I decided to give up on poker, and decided to finish myself off by playing/*moving up* to NL25.

NL25, a level which I have never previously beaten. Hell, a level which I've never been "UP", ever. It seems everytime I've played this level I start losing right away.
NL25, with just 1.5 buyins. Very nice.

Anyway, I've resigned myself to my fate, and wondered how long before I can finally drain my bankroll to $0. I'd put the over-under at probably at 1.5 hours. Let's see...

20 minutes in, I get into a big pot with a medium stack and surprisingly, my hand holds up. Okay, so maybe it might take me 2 hours. Over wins.

30 minutes later, I get into another big pot with a medium stack once again. And again, the poker gods shone a ray of light on the random number generator and my hand help up once again. When I finally left the table, I was up 2 buyins, bringing my bankroll up again to just under $80. I told myself what the hell, I'd call it a night, and play again tomorrow, staying at the NL25 until I go broke.

That was 3 weeks ago.

Poker is like a girl who wears slutty clothes but won't put out. She'll show you enough to keep you interested, she'll be friendly enough to let you think about the possibilities, but all that is just so she can turn down our busted asses broke. I HAVEN'T HAD A LOSING DAY IN 3 WEEKS! One tabling the NL25 all these weeks has left me with a bankroll of about $250. (You can see that I don't play that often).

Some days I win $5, some days I $35, last night I won $2. But the fact is I'm winning again, against all odds, against all rational explanation, against all that is possible, I'm winning again when I shouldn't. I'm playing scared money for crying out loud!! Shitty too. I raise JJ preflop and I'm reraised big? Fold. 7-4 in the big blind and the flop is 7 high? Check fold the flop. Small blind and everyone folds to me? Fold as well.

I'm still SEVERELY underolled for my level (just 10 buyins), but at this point I don't care anymore about playing correctly. I'll just keep chugging along in this manner for the time being until I reach disaster once again.

Of course, now that I've written about it, I've just jinxed myself and the disaster will be coming to me soon.